Who am I ?

Hello, I am Puran Adhikari.

Or at least… that’s what I’ve been told to call myself.

Sometimes I wonder—am I actually “Puran Adhikari,” or just a name I learned to respond to after years of repetition? A label assigned by language, society, family, documents, and a few bored teachers taking attendance?

Funny thing is, I didn’t choose it. It was given, installed, updated over time—like software I never agreed to download but now run every day.

So then the question becomes: who am I really?

Am I the name?
Am I the habits that quietly run in the background?
Am I the thoughts that appear and disappear without permission?
Or am I something underneath all of that—the observer who is slightly confused but still curious?

Maybe identity is not a solid thing at all. Maybe it’s more like a shared project—built by evolution, shaped by society, edited by family, and occasionally hacked by our own choices when we’re brave enough.

Anyway, I go by Puran Adhikari for now. It’s convenient. People recognize it. Forms accept it. Life moves forward with it.

And beyond that label, I often describe myself as an explorer of this world—not in the sense of traveling everywhere, but in the way I try to understand life, people, and even myself.

I make mistakes. A lot of them. But what interests me is not the mistake itself—it is the process that follows. I observe, I reflect, I try to understand why it happened… and sometimes, I repeat it again.

Perhaps that is how growth feels—non-linear, messy, and strangely repetitive.